2008

My boyfriend has a blog and I wanted to post a comment to his blog and when doing so it logged me into blogger and brought me to this blog I made last year. I haven't posted anything on it in over two years and thought I should address where I have been and why I hate blogs.

First things first- I made this blog because I had another blog that I wrote on quite frequently but one I wanted to remain private. So friends of mine kept saying "start a blog", "write a blog", "I want to know your deepest, darkest secrets- fears- etc," (personally, I think that last reason was very creepy!) But I decided, against my better judgement, to start this blog. Reading the last posts are kinda funny because it was so long ago. I hate blogs because even with the best intentions, I can't seem to keep them up. I forget about them, time goes by and then it seems like oh, I should but I have nothing to say or whatever.

a quick catch up: (i hate playing catch up.)
in the last year I moved into a new apartment in north hollywood- which i love. it is two bedrooms and two bathrooms and has 14th foot ceilings. we both have parking spots(very important) and it's on the third floor, so hopefully noone can jump through my window like on CSI or Without a Trace.

i work at a sleep center. a new one. sometimes i still work at the old one, but I really like the environment at the new one and my boss isn't as crazy. which makes a world of a difference. i really miss working with natashsa, but the pay is much better and my stress levels are down- so it's a win-win.

chris moved to vegas. one of my bestfriends moved away and devastation hit l.a. i always loved chris but never fully understood how much I loved him and needed him around to totally feel fulfilled and happy in everyday life. we have visited a few times, but i will always wish for his return to this horrible city.

my grandfather died. he was one of the sweetest people I have ever known. he was known for blowing kisses to my grandmother and always was ready with a cold drink the minute anyone walked through the door. he worked really hard his whole life and after retirement spent his afternoons picking my brother and myself up from school. we had the most amazing car rides home. i was lucky (if that is the right word) to be home in florida when we found out. i officially grew up that day- watching my dad realize that his father had died. I will be completely ok if I never have to witness an event like that ever again.

bob and I. i am so lucky to have someone so sweet and thoughtful and caring to be with everyday. i craved those feelings for so long, wondered what they would feel like and if i would ever feel the same way for someone else. it has been a worthwhile journey of learning and love filled with craziness, fun and laughter that only someone so silly could give me. (this kinda sounds like a proposal or funeral speech... hmm, let's just take it as love.) but for real, I like waking up next to him, watching tv with him, cooking with him, riding in the car with him. he's really cute when he has written a new song and he plays it for me and says "you hate it"- even though I am so impressed and in total awe of his abilities and creativity that i seem to not be able to find the words to express how I feel. and he is really cute when he puts on a suit jacket and thinks he looks amazing.

I traveled to Atlanta to see Carolyn, Florida to see my Family, Mammoth for skiing, Vegas to see Chris and the Killers in Concert, San Fran (twice) to meet bob's cousins and see the killers in concert, to San Diego for Bob's bIrthday, and to Puerto Rico for Christmas.

I experienced my first earthquake.

i was in a play. Twelfth Night by Shakespeare. It was amazing to be on stage again and to play and experiment and have fun everynight. I miss it already.

****2008****

my new years resolution was to try not to pass judgement on others. this is very hard because people are crazy and silly and stupid and idiots and need to be commented on. around 12:14am on new years day- i thought about changing the resolution to judge people alittle less often. i might be able to stick with that one.

my focus for this year is career and friendships. after doing the play i really want to keep being involved in theatre and acting as much as possible. and as far as friendships- i have made several amazing friends in my life time. and some of them i have lost contact with, so I bought this books and i've contacted all of them and i think we are going to write back and forth- until hopefully we are all up to date with eachothers lives and we love eachother and are visiting all the time and etc. as far as my friendships here, i met some really cool people doing the play and i don't want to lose contact with them. and the friends i already had-remembering how important someone is to your everyday life and try to be the best friend you can every single day- not just on some days and hope they remember when you were really great. it's the small things, the everyday things, that matter most.

oh, also I need to go to the dentist. i think something is wrong with my upper left tooth.