hey brother...

This is the thing:
Blogs are fun until they become personal. -Or-
They are fun when the other person thinks that no one is reading it. That way the blogger is writing deep dark secrets and how they "really feel." then the reader feels like they have some cool insight into how that person feels and acts. But this is tricky for the blogger because in order to keep a completely personal, private blog- they have to be comfortable telling no one and allowing that to be ok. The problem then lies with the blogger because usually people who write blogs secretly want people to read those things happening in their lives. At least this is the way I see things.

so i guess what i'm getting at, is that I don't know what this blog is going to be for me. At first I was just doing this because Carolyn did one, and I thought it would be funny. But really, in order to care about this blog and want to continue to write on it often, i think it might have to become personal. and now, i guess i don't know what to do because I've blown the whole idea of keeping the blog undercover. and i don't know how i feel about just saying fuck it- and talking about how i "feel" knowing that all kinds of people could read it. Other friends of mine who have blogs or online journals seem to not care about that. They usually write what's on their minds and don't really care what everyone else thinks. so i guess i have to decide what i want this blog to be and what it means to me- if i'm going to continue doing this. ah, a lot of writing and no real answers. blah- whatever.

so, this past weekend was interesting. So much fun with friends who I definitely don't see enough of. I'm trying to make chris move here. hopefully he will. meagan was soooo much fun. She is just as crazy as i left her. The five of us- the entourage- are the perfect match. somehow even though its been six or so months we all just jumped back into the swing of things and well, basically- we are soooo funny. and attractive. haha... j/k. (meagan) I wish they both lived here and were in my life everyday. i laughed and smiled so much this weekend. friday night was a glitch- which if this blog was that "personal" type of blog i was talking about earlier- I might discuss- but i'm not sure if this blog is that, yet. But anyway- really things were amazing- we went all over l.a. and really spent so much time just hanging out with eachother, which is what we always did anyway. I love them.